Hello =)

So I have decided to start an online blog. I am totally new to this and I am really excited about it =D Not sure exactly what to write but basically the purpose of this blog is to document my  progress on my weight loss journey. I was inspired to loose weight for many reasons, and by many people. One person in particular inspired me to believe that I can actually loose weight and be honest about what I need to do (the same person inspired me to write a blog lol). If I can inspire at least one other person to join me on my journey, I would be really happy. I have decided that  as of today I want to loose 45kg. Since November 2011 I have lost 13kg, most of which was over Christmas lol. By using this blog I want to keep myself motivated and also hear from others who are on a similar journey. I have plenty of reasons to loose weight, the most important obviously is my health. I have made a promise to myself I will go to the local gym 3 times a week, and every day I will walk for at least 30-40mins and on the days I don't go to the gym, I will walk an extra hour. I will record how good (or bad) I have been as often as I can. My aim is to be at goal weight by the end of the year, to do this I hope to loose 5kg a month. I know you shouldn't put a time frame on weight loss, but I work on due dates and I made a promise to myself in November last year that I would loose 5kg by Christmas 2011, and I lost 10kg instead. 45kg is my ultimate goal, however I will be happy with a 40kg total weightloss.

So, now to get into my "daily" update. Not sure how long the daily part will stick but I will try my best. This morning I woke up at 7am, usually when I have a day at home (especially when its raining) I looooove a sneaky afternoon nap. Today I made sure I did not even sit down on the lounge. Because I often suffer from lack of sleep mostly due to the fact I am a shift worker and studying at uni, it is not odd for me to get home at about 11:15pm and wake up at 5:30am to get ready for the next shift. I have found that even though I do have a short sleep, if I have broken sleep (2hrs here, 1 hr there, etc...) compared to 5-8hrs straight I tend to loose weight rather than retaining it. Today I had my first gym sesh of the week, and a 40min walk with my loving fiance.

While I sit here typing this, I am watching one of those 'skinny people yell at fat people while they are on a treatmill' shows. How aweful are these shows. I do not find them inspirational at all. In fact they are just degrading. I wonder how I would feel being on of those 'fat people on the treadmill', and I remember I was one of those... It was about 2 years ago I was a member of another gym and I decided to get a personal trainer. $800.00 later and 3 sessions I ended up quitting the gym, when they told me I couldn't get a refund for the remaining 7 sessions (I didn't even ask for one) I told them I would rather loose the money then loose my self pride. I actually gained weight from my PT experience. I am sure some people find it 'motivating' to be pretty much called a whale on a treadmill, but I found that once I finished my session I just ran to the comfort food because I felt that loosing weight was an aweful negative experience. After these last few months I have regained my inner strength and I am determined to make this as positive as I can (and I can't wait to go into any shop and buy anything I like). I have been sitting at the same weight I am currently since early February 2012, most people think that is a negative, but not me. I actually lost weight and didn't put it on for like a month which is awesome for me =D I want to make sure I look at everything in a positive light. When I say I didn't put the weight back on, of course I regained a kg or 2 during that time, but I knew what I did wrong and how to fix it. I think this time round I am more educated, motivated and positive about the experience and I hope this lasts.