Thoughts and feelings...

Well today I had a crazy idea. I thought it would be a good day to try on my year 12 formal dress. I graduated in 2006 and that was the first and only time I actually wore the dress. I remember trying it on in 2008 because I thought it would be a good dress to wear to a party I was going to and it did not fit. The last time I tried it on was November 2011 and I thought to myself "Wow I used to fit into this" it was sooooo small the zipper only did up half way and I was so upset. Today the zip just went up perfectly, I was shocked. To make it better it was a little too big!! I was so shocked. I took a photo and sent it to all my friends to show them all my hard work had paid off. Then I got thinking "am I really smaller than I was in highschool!!!" To confirm I went and found my old work shirt that I wore after I graduated and it fitted too I was amazed and so happy. Even though I still have a long way till goal weight it was a great boost to have this dress fit me today and reminded me that I am 1/3 of the way there and I can do this =D

my progress so far =)

Ok so it has been sooooo long since I have posted a blog. I have actually been using a site called myfitnesspal.com which has been fantastic for motivation and calorie counting. I was lucky enough to find some very motivational friends from around the world who have similar goals in mind. I have been on uni holidays since May and amazingly enough my diet has changed in such a positive way. I have also discovered the importance of fat consumption in dieting (by the  hard way I might add). I have learn't that everything has to be in the right balance in order for the weight to come off. As I work shifts it is hard for me to organise my meals but I have been very strict on when I wake up, regardless of the time, it is breakfast time. Then of course lunch and then dinner. My breakfast meal is usually either boiled eggs on multigrain toast or porridge and low fat yogurt. Depending of the shift I am doing I will either have a bigger lunch or a bigger dinner but I will have a smaller meal for the other meal. My smaller meal has mostly been either a chicken or tuna salad or as a little treat easy mac. For the larger meal of the day I like to have something very vegetable based. I have actually started making my own vegetable mince with my food processer which is fantastic!! At first I added a little tiny bit of meat and I actually had to tell my fiance that it was actually mostly made of vegetables. I have also explained by dieting and how important it was to my fiance and he was more than happy to join me, which was great because that minimised the amount of temptation food which was in the house. I brought both of us special salad containers which we can take to work (mines pink his is green lol) and it is just basically routine now to make the lunches the night before. While I still have a while left of my uni holidays I have already decided how I can keep my routine in order when I return. This semester I will be working 4 shifts (8hrs per shift) per week while attending uni full time. This is actually a MASSIVE workload but I think I will be ok, I enjoy being challenged and this will certainly test me =) I have decided to have the bulk of my classes on the days I am not working and if I have to have one on a day that I am working so I am not having 16hr days 2-3 days a week. I had a year and a half of that and found that on my days off all I would do was catch up on missed sleep lol.

I am actually so proud of myself and my progress I have made with both uni and my weight loss. Alot of people I know have done the whole hard work out sessions at the gym and intense food limitations but in my fridge you will be able to find tim tams and freddo frogs. I have actually only stepped in a gym 3 times since November 2011 and I have lost almost 20kg!! I have had so many people jump to conclusions like "Oh what are you taking??" or " Are you doing a shake diet??" and the most annoying one "Do you have diabetes??" the answer to those are nothing, no and NO!!! I hate that people assume that I have not been doing any hard work just because I haven't gone to the gym or live off lettuce. I have based my exersise on something I know that I will continue to do forever not just till I am healthy. So many people I know that have lost weight by intense gym work outs and food limitations have regained every bit of weight on and I really don't want that to be me. I basically developed my own little program which includes healthy eating and plenty of exercise. If I feel like something I will have it because I know if I don't the craving will increase and in the end I will give in and go crazy and eat every single thing in sight. If I get it over and done with I am more likely to just eat an appropriate portion and avoid a massive binge.

Well that is my rant for tonight. I will try to be more consistant with my posts =)

Talk soon xx